Temporarily Escaping

sebab rinduku terlalu lelah untuk mengeluh,
sedang menggapaimu kurasa sudah terlalu jauh.

kau bentangkan jarak;
kau perlambat waktu;
dunia hening tanpa sorai sorak;
kau ajarkan aku, yang mereka sebut dengan rindu.

have been holding these words all this time. been caught up. can't speak. can't stitch any words in my head.

think about the nerve you've got when you are beside the one you love. think about the fireworks when someone you love, loves you back. think about the dizzy fizzy that made your stomach feels funny, like there are thousands butterflies twitch inside. now think beyond those, that's how I feel.

you are the one who comes unexpectedly. you knock at the right door, in the right time. you're not only meeting my expectations, you're searching and reaching for them.

and this not even what I have expected. but you came, broke the walls, went against all odds. like the antigens greeted my immune systems, you put my heart in inflame, in a good way.

ah, you. you're not my last piece of uncompleted puzzle, but a substrate to my protein. you're not only my vitamins that keep me going thru the day, but also a bunch of serotonin that keeps me happy. you are how I define a new term of happiness.

anyway, it's not I'm lucky that I have you, or you're lucky that you have me.

it's we are lucky to have us.

Halooo my dearest cousin of all time, @fitriimoseley!

Pagi tadi gue kaget banget baca WA lo yg nanyain soal surat. Ahh I was really surprised waktu tau lo ada nulis surat buat ultah gue..!

Jadi tadi gue udah deg-degan banget ke kantor pos, ekspektasi gue banyaaak, dan harapan gue gede bakal nerima tu surat... trus eh ternyata... emang gue ga berjodoh sama surat itu, gue telat ngomplainnya karna ini udah lewat 6 bulan dan nomer resi suratnya otomatis udah keapus :'(

Aaaahhhh gue sedih ga nanggung-nanggung, tukang parkir kantor pos lah yang jadi saksi sedih gue tadi fit :(
Trus pulang-pulang ke rumah gue masih denial dan masih sedih banget, gue kayak "Why don't you tell me like 3 months earlier?" atau "Why doesn't God tell you to tell me 3 months earlier?" (ya namanya juga lagi sedih + PMS semua-semua disalahin hehe)
Urgh, gue masih sedih sampe sekarang.

Trus gue pengen langsung bilang ke elo, tapi apa daya time difference menjadi penghalang di antara kita, WA gue ke elo ga berbalas-balas karena lo masih tidur di sana, jadilah gue sedih sendirian :'|

Hmm, udah la ya bahas surat-suratnya, nanti kita sambung di WA aja.. hehe

Inti surat kali ini sebenarnya cuma gue pengen bilang gue kangeeeen pake bangeeet sama elo..! Ini adalah masa terlama kita ga pernah ketemuan, udah hampir dua tahun (lebay tapi bener), semoga lo ga capek denger gue bilang kangen sering-sering ya..! And I'm craving for that days when we would just lay around and having talks about anything..! Ahh you know how much I've missed you :(

Uhm gitu aja sihh, pleeeaassee take care..! Jaga diri baik-baik di sana, selalu doa untuk kelancaran hidup kita berdua masing-masing (ini penting hahaha) dan semoga hal yang kita inginkan sebentar lagi kesampaian, aamiin..!

Okay, last but not least, mungkin surat ini ga se-keren atau se-berharga surat-surat yang udah elo tulis untuk gue (yang sekarang entah berada di mana), namun semoga cukup mengobati hati kita ya :')

Satu lagi, SEMOGA kita bener-bener bisa ketemu taun ini..! Semoga semesta memudahkan rencana kita, Allahumma aamiin!

See ya!